BEING BALD

ASA,

LOL. I never thought that being bald would be such a interesting condition. As a women, you get all caught up in your hair, but I'm finding that baldness is an interesting sensation all of its own. I'm guessing that men may know what I mean. I mean really, do you think of your head/scalp as being sensitive( yah, I know, but that's only when you're combing your hair and you pull on it!). As muslimah, when you go to make wudu, you wipe your hands over you head. You're really touching your hair and not your scalp. I'm finding the feeling interesting when I wipe my hands over my head (from front to back, then back to front). The sensation of the water touching my scalp (never thought about the temperature when making wudu, now I do); Or taking a shower and washing you head. I'm still growing some hair, so the short stubs when I touch my scalp, are soo sensitive. I'm not having any issues with my scalp. Some people when they go bald because of the chemo, the scalp will hurt or they will have other issues. Alhamdulillah for now I'm good. I am so thankful. Allah is merciful.

In soldarity my husband cut his hair.

CHEMODAY #2

ASA,

Shrukan Allah for this day.

Today was chemoday #2. It went pretty much like Chemoday #1. I tolerated the poison dipping into my veins without complied. You know they give you about 4 drugs prior to the actual chemo drugs, just to make sure you don't throw up or have an allergic reaction.
They gave me a private room which was great. They first put me in a room that had three other people in it. I did not like that. They moved me to a private room when the charge nurse notice that one of my cancer drugs took 3 hours to drip. They reserve private rooms for people that are really, really sick I guess. Anywho, I appreciated the private room. Slept thru most of day. I also had to go out to my doctor's main office which is allll the waaaay on the westside. Personal I like the cancer center at the main campus for the hospital which is closer to home. I can take a bus there. The bus drops me off almost in front of building. Oh well, my doctor is only there sometimes, and I have to see the doctor before I can have the chemo. All in all it was a good day. I will have to wait and see what tomorrow brings but today was not a bad day and all praises are due to  Allah for his mercy.

HAIR LOSS

I was not ready for the hair loss. I knew it was coming and I really wasn't upset about it orginally, but when you comb you hair and all of it comes out and you have a bald spot, its a bit unnerving.This happened on Sunday. This morning I took a pair of scissors to the rest of my braids and cut it short and washed what was left. Did not comb it because I knew I would pull out a lot. Oh well. DH found the clipper, and when we clean it and oil it, what's left of my hair will be gone.

I really thought that I wouldn't lose most of my hair until after the second chemo treatment. I guess it will be my eyebrow next.

All in all I'm doing fine. I'm going to work, I'm not tried or fatigue, I'm eating like a horse.
I'm thanking Allah everyday for each day. Alhamduillah!
MY HAIR WILL GROW BACK!!!!!! INSHALLAH!!!!

I finished my Lissajous from the knit.love.sock kal. I wore them today. I'm so proud of my knee highs . They did not stay up. I'll have to insert some elastic at the top.

This is the back of the leg.

Shukran Allah!
The last few days have been a little rough, but not too bad. I have a few numb fingers, which doesn't help with my knitting. I have a pair of knee socks that I'm trying to finish by the end of the week. C drove me home today from work. Thank you C. Yesterday I had an incident which left me sore all over and I did not have a restful night.

First day of Chemo

Shukran Allah for a good day!
Today was my first day of Chemo. It wasn't bad. They put me in a private room and I was able to look at T.V. Saw my doctor; everything looked ok. Chemo started about 1pm and I was finished by 5:30pm. I'm feeling ok now. Tomorrow might be a different day. We will see.

ASA,
 Third day at work. Made it through. Did not have much to do; I did see a client for a  coworker, so the day was not completely borring. I also called the doctor and was schedule for chemo tomorrow.  This will the first time. Tomorrow I'll go into the backstory and reason for this blog, not today. I got up this morning around 4am and prayed to Allah that the choices that I have made will be the correct ones. but more on that tomorrow. It was a good day and shukran Allah for this day. The sun was out today; For Cleveland, at this time of year, it's rare.

ASA,
Today was a good day. Shukran Allah. Made it to work today and survived. Of course I'm not doing anything at work right now, because I haven't received my caseload yet. That won't be too long in happening, so I should just enjoy the calm before the storm.